nothing works anymore..so why try to fix it.nothing changes fast anough for you so you make it change.nothing perfect except little fanticies that you try so hard to come true.i hope you know how it is when they love the dead more than you.

feel my hate
dont let it take shape
come out from where you hide
dont let the womb controll you

cut the umbilicle cord
come dance with us
little baby fetus

"if you give them anough rope they hang themselves with it"

"theres a fine line between being punk and being gay"

"all gone and dead"

pornographic cinema centers keeping this country alive
keeping all the people from comitting mass suicide
its hard to pull a trigger
when there hands are on there dicks
its hard to pull a trigger
when there watching those flics

anarchy:1the complete and total lack of goverment
2political disorder and violence
3disorder confusion

unloved fund

"punk is musical freedom. its saying , doing asnd playing what you want. in wbsters terms 'nirvana' means freedom from pain , suffering and the external world , and thats pretty much my definition of punk rock"
kurt cobain

youth angst

"sid fuckin' vicious what a wanker"

this country is growing to be isolationists

NO MORE!were not the police of the world

what do you do
when your lost morals
come back to you
what do you say
when they find out its you
glazzed eyes don't fade whrn you say
what can i do
runaway

"drink , sex ciggerts"

don't mind the bollocks

when that day comes
will you try to sleep
when you come to find
that sleeps overrated

josie dear josie
this isn't me chasing you
josie run josie
before i come for you
before i get you

she sleeps awake halousinates
what it means she don't know
maggots eat what it means to hate
qouth the raven never more

she dont know what she gotten into
the day that she met me
she dont know what she gotten into
the day that she sayed yes to me
when will you lear
its none ofe you concern
come take a hit of
some of my cancer

she's knee deap in my species
 she's knee deap in my sticky pheshies
she's knee deep in my phesies
she's knee deep in my dirty species

she don't know what she got into
the days after she held me
she don't know what she gotten into
after she said never to me
she don't know what she gotten into
after she left me
i know my lifes full of contradictories

she's knee deep in my species
she"s knee deep in my stick phesies      x2
she's knee deep in my phesies
shes knee deep in my dirty species

after a while she starts to complain
after a while all this shit is the same
after i have jumped of this plane
after a while were all the same

SHE DON'T KNOW
WHAT SHE DONT KNOW
SHE DONT KNOW"
WHAT SHE DONT KNOW

living in this with me

so right now,right this second,you might be wandering whos doing what right now,this second.chances are, someones doin it.hey its a safe bet. say you said some one was getting murdered.well probably.for all we know a world just exploded.ain't that exciting.lol.well here i am.your average single dude with a guitar and red hair.what can you do.i want to be angry but i can't  i miss the confort in being sad.lol.i got a valintine from vagina man and thats it.did you get a valintine from vagina man?i do not think so. join the unloved fund and donate to me cause i said so.obey.obey..were starting a boxin club because we decided that it be fun to get a room full of dudes with boxing gloves in one big free for all.put youth angst to good use , you know do what you always wanted to do pin your friend on the floor and beat his face in.fuck!i love you all.just i love some more than others.and if that hurts your feeling well fuck off.tu punta gorda.well i also hate my mom.she a prick.but hey screw it.im runnen out of shit to right about so latter.

chadwick

ya dude chadwick couldn't go to the wredtlin thing to see all of his amigos so he is pissed.try to reach themandy unit to tell her but i can't.me brother had something that my mother unit forgot about so here i am stuck her.smokin to pass time.o god arent i the healthy soul.lol.its good for you!well imgunna chill here look up some tabs and listen music,jerk,sleep or somethin of the sort.i shall show you the beauty of subhumans after wrighting alittle bit.the craziest thing though i went to call someone,fuck i cant remember who,but anywho a fox shows up like 10 feet away from me.it was so cool.it pounced on somethin and killed this rabbit or mouse the just ran off.it was like i wasnt there.it was rightious to see the whole predditor thing finaly work out.like such a cute and beautiful animal kill somethin.it shows that the prettiest thing can be killers.it was lik,e a omen or somethin.lol what ever dude its was just awsome.things been good forme though.everything with xes,amigos,chikas,to plaiun just anybodys gone pretty good.cant complain.i just gotta say fuck it ill there be other times besides today to hang with them.i wanted to see her.but you know dude.life goes on and you end up just realy opissed and bored.can you feel my love buzz?or any of me buzzes.another day of the political argument,failin school and talkin of shit that no one realy cares about.

Drink, Sex, Cigarettes
Ford Cortina household pets
Bombs? War? Famine? Death?
An apathetic public couldn t care less

The Public watches ITV
Reads The Sun drinks cups of tea
Two-star family stay content
Their lives controlled by parliament
Well daddy's lost his job again
Because he never had no brain
He only lives to watch TV
His life controlled by apathy

The Russians seem so far away
The government seems to be OK
The papers never mention war
Cos the people that they cater for have got….

The things that you never knew were there
Or was it that you didn't care
The biggest problem face to face
An apathetic human race

life,as i said before,is confusing.but what are we gunna do about it.easy give everyone mind reading powers that can help you see into the future.now what to invest your time in and so on and so forth.and your all fuckin tired of hereing this but.fuck off!lol

You're gone forever I miss you so
A world without you
Will never be the same
We drifted apart
To you it was just a game
I'm bringing flowers
Looking for a stone
With your name
To the end of time
You're in my thoughts
No matter what you did
You'll always be mine
I tried my best girl
But you I just couldn't tame
I'm bringing flowers
Look for a stone
With your name

Searching every corner
Of the graveyard
I spent all day and night
So much time
Looking for a stone
With your name
But all I found
Was a stone with mine

a little neks for ya. one of the fuckin best songs in the world.besides...na not realy a besides here.i feel like righting.but not realy in here.so just wanted toput that song up.it realy means...ya it means somethin.but oi oi spikey head drunk punk.

chadwick

sorry dudes im having a a.d.d moment.so fuck you.feb 11 social distortions coming and itll be rightiousd.ill find that chika with the hawk that i saw at the casualties.and ya ill be like "hola" and allthat good greating shit.lol.meloncollys a bitch.jackets are for conformists.what else do you need to know.chad is dyein his hair purple with orange streeks or leopord prints.right now i shall give you lyrics from lars frederikson and the bastards:

Like zombies in the night, she’s creeping around my house.
The moonlight burns my eyes, nocturnally hypnotizes.
She’s just a memory that’s got a thirst for blood.
She said she wants me dead, I know she wants me dead.

She’s makin jewellery from the maggots of my wounds.
She looks so lovely.
Jewellery, from the maggots from my wounds she looks so good to me.

The devils come to roost. Well in my sleepless nights,
Well evil speaks my name. I read it in the lights.
The echo’s of her voice like barbed wire round my eyes,
she says she wants me dead, I know she wants me dead.

She’s makin jewellery from the maggots of my wounds.
She looks so lovely.
Jewellery, from the maggots from my wounds she looks so good to me.

Jewellery, jewellery, jewellery, jewellery

there you go so.what the fucks up with this.that chadwick kid such a fucking poser.lol.anywho.did i tell you punks dead.witch would makemeand most of my droogs living dead.were zombified and voodoodized.but were here to stay babe.oi!dude......sucide girls sre fuckin hot.lol.and check out shock therapy and angry,poor,young.great sites.here are the thing i say to fuck:america,goverment,an archy,socialism,punk,psyc hobilly,girlfriends,chadw ick,ect..everythings overrated.

latter

chadwick

its my bros birthday today so every body say happy birthday to him.kk.gracias.because he hasnt had the best birthday so it make his day.

latter

chadwick

i dunno why but this seems to mach me perfectly.and if your sick of hereing  lyrics then dont come to my fuckin blog.

heres safe tonight by anti-flag:

you know i feel so violent,

just want to brake some glass

every day ipray it'll be my last

turning to a blank wall wondering what to do?

turning to a caliber .22

every day he starts the same old fight

and every day it just gets worse by night

if i hit the streets i think i'll be alright,

but untill i do

i won't be safe tonight

safe tonight

every day i remember all that led to this

and every day don't you know i get a little more pissed

banging onmyslef because i don't care

theres nothing left for me back there

he's twisted and violent,

i don't know what to do

i left therefor the streets last night

thinking only of you, be safe tonight

safe tonight

it all falls down on to me like a baseball bat

it hurts me,haunts me,hurts me,haunts me,

i never want to go back

i'm twisted tonight

and i don't knowwhat to do ?

i'm twisted tonight

i want to be with you,i want to be with you,i want to be with

be with,be with,be with

you.....

ya thats it.imjust sick of shit at this point.

this song seems to mach mood complretly if you have hered this song you should check it out so here it isagain:

Foolish fool



Crazy crazy

Crazy fool

Crazy fool



If she thinks that she is gonna dispose my world

I'd be a crazy crazy crazy -- crazy fool

Crazy fool



My love for you was oh so strong

We went together for oh so long

If I don't complain about this misery yah

Is this the way love's supposed to be,

Supposed to be now

Foolish foolish

Oh you just a foolish girl



Ohhhhhhhhh foolish foolish

Oh ya just a crazy girl



If she thinks that she is gonna take you from me

Gotta be a crazy crazy crazy -- crazy fool

Crazy fool

and heres something by the zinger:

My place, is not a home
Don't make no difference
But I've found,
That I need a place to stay
Though disease was just the price I paid

Big Salty Tears
Is what I taste
As I drive
Past your house
Tonight
And all those break lights
That are in front of me
They make me
Want to get on tonight

This is a Ziggens song by the way

I'm at the age where I realize
The liquor store won't bring you back
I must be gettin' old
I'm at the drive-thru
And I'm making my face
All fat fat fat fat fat
Big Salty Tears

I'm at the age where I realize
Nothin' actually
Just do what I'm supposed to do
$2.17
Next window please please please please please
Big Salty Tears
I'm at the age where I realize
The liquor store won't bring you back
I must be gettin' old
I'm at the drive-thru
And I'm making my face
All fat fat fat fat fat
Big Salty Tears

I'm at the age where I realize
Nothin' actually
Just do what I'm supposed to do
$2.17
Next window please please please please please
Big Salty Tears

so ya what ever......fuck you

fuck you!so what i can't spell revult.lol.this is now coming to realization that i am well or was or will be,lets just say i am till its been fixed, a constant contradiction of myself.being "punk" or whatever you fuckin call this scene, is a constant battle of not possing and to not sell out.which also meens that you never realy can get out of this.your stuck.this isnt just a way of dressing its a fuckin life style.when you are around something for long anough it becomes partof your personality,it becomes you.and when you start to move away from it it eats you apart.but in all my beleafs theres so fuckin many that just fight each other.the first one was the whole idea of "possers.by deffinitions these are the guys that come and go through out this scenes existance.through out the tribes.there the guys who drees it andlook it but dont live this life style.but when you first start becomeing apart of this thats basicly what you saw in this scene first.so this meens that the "true punks" are just the possers who were around long anough to change.the second one was my beleafs in anarchy.now im not claiming im afuckin hard core anarchist thats gunna flip the cops car and light it up.im a borderline anarchist.i beleave everythying that they say just not by the circumstances in witch they think theyllget it.i beleave that anarchy can work just that as a whole peoplearent responsible anough yet.i beleave that it almost needs to be a ressetion than a roit.but there areto few of us to do this so thats when the whole riots comein.witch i dont beleave in violince.so i am not a true anarchist.if you can even call meso.the second part of thisis that i dont beleave in a need for "laws" or "rules".witch meens that i try to follow as few as i can without enden up in jail.but inmylast relationship i agreed to not drink smoke and get high.so then i was goin against my beleafs yet again.this is were i start to thgink that this whole punk thing might not be worth it inthe end.dont get me wrong i fuckin love this.but this whole scene has become exsacly what it was against.now so many fuckin do's and don't's and saying what is and isnt punk.guidelines for you to follow to be called "punk".and thats rules and thatis conforming.exsaclywhat this wasagainst.so fuck you dude who think can say who is and isnt and what you have todo.the onres ewho say that you cant "fall in love" or listen to other music.dont let these fuckin guidlines rule your life.and noew im done.so ya

latter

chadwick

yes yes my droogs,its true.chadwick is now dumped.havent been sober for last two night but its alright.being single is over rated.lol.fuck dude ive been listenin to sublime non fuckin stop.notgunna lie bros imsad about it.ya i know im a fuckin pussy.but ya know i didnt realy want it to be over buti guess its whats best.she still like my fuckin best friend.just its gunna be hard dudes.im tryin dudes, i realy am.but im gointo just have to keep tellin mysef that its over.ya know.i still have the samefeelingsjust i cant realy express them anymore dudes.ill just have to controll myself and...when i see her ill have to tell myselfnot to kiss her and that shit.im just kinda sick of hereing from everyone that they'll find mesomeone else and all that shit.because theres still that partof me waighting to see if a mirracle will happen and we get back to gether.i know im pathetic.but still...i dun know dudes.heres "marry" bye sublime:

Baby one breath away.
I'll find the words to say.
I'll sit and light the bong.
I'll hold my hit in real long.
I don't know if I can go up inside of you tonight.
Oh Mary baby please don't fuss and fight.
You've heard the line before.
Mary baby please don't think I'm a bore.
If you come home to me turn off the lights, and lock up the
doors, and
start getting busy.
I don't know if I can go so far up inside you tonight.
Oh Mary baby I could do it right.
When we got to the pad,
Mary baby started calling me her dad.
Yes, she gave me head.
We could not find a damn bed!
Fifteen years old plus one, hotter than a microwave oven.
Oh Mary baby, daddy is coming home.

and heres foolish fool:

Foolish fool

Crazy crazy
Crazy fool
Crazy fool

If she thinks that she is gonna dispose my world
I'd be a crazy crazy crazy -- crazy fool
Crazy fool

My love for you was oh so strong
We went together for oh so long
If I don't complain about this misery yah
Is this the way love's supposed to be,
Supposed to be now
Foolish foolish
Oh you just a foolish girl

Ohhhhhhhhh foolish foolish
Oh ya just a crazy girl

If she thinks that she is gonna take you from me
Gotta be a crazy crazy crazy -- crazy fool
Crazy fool

ya there you go dudes.ska for fuckin life dudes.i dont know 

what to say so latter i'm just gunna waste my life away so....
fuck you

hey, what can i say....im a fuck up.and fuck you!lol heres the lyrics they just kinda maches my mood

I am buried up to my neck in
Contradictionary flies
I take pride as the kind of illiterature
I'm very ape and very nice

If you ever need anything please don't
Hesitate to ask someone else first
I'm too busy acting like I'm not naive
I've seen it all I was here first

Out of the ground
Into the sky
Out of the sky
Into the dirt

If you ever need anything please don't
Hesitate to ask someone else first
I'm too busy acting like I'm not naive
I've seen it all I was here first

Out of the ground
Into the sky
Out of the sky
Into the ground
Out of the ground
Into the sky
Out of the sky
Into the dirt

there you go

i dont know i i get like this but i do.my mother left me at a reteraunt after calling me a drug addict because my hair was dredded.she went threw how im a failure and all that shit like she always does.but then she started yellin at me for stuff i cant help.like how my face is broken out, how i cant sleep, even to the broken ribs.what the hell can i do about it.nothing.she says i look dead.she says im on drugs on something when shes the one to get help for her drugs.shit i dont know.but....is it all worth it in the end.will it get better.or will we all be stuck here wondering what it could of been.how it be.how it be if you didnt have me.if you actualy got rid of me when there was no feeling at all.no atachment.no guilt in it.o well i guess im still here.lol anough of that shit latter dudes.

yesterday was me and mandys aniv as she calls it.my father unit said that i could whatever i want yesturday but nooo me and mandy were stuck baby sittin.so ya.but it twas awsome toosee her.my bros an ass thats all you need to know.and ze mandy unit gave me a GUNS N' ROSES t-shirt!my head is killen me at the moment..uhhhh..im dead.*deadness*so ya.

i am mearly defending the casualties in this gesture to show that though limited, jorge does have some talent in wrighting lyrics.so in your face mandy.and there more where that came from.many more songs and cds.

OI OI OI

Into a scene full of lies
Met you there, you seemed alright
Gave you love, gave you a heart
All you gave me... Broken Heart

Broken heart - I want it back
Broken heart - I got it back

Oh my love, oh my dear
Loved you dear , oh so dear
Gave you love, gave you a heart
All you gave me ... broken heart

Broken Heart - I want it back
Broken Heart - I got it back

Gave you love, gave you a heart
All you gave me, Broken heart

i just got kicked out of the play.lol figures, huh?ya im a little pissed about the whole thing and im also,dare i say, sad about it. i actualy worked and everything.ya it wasnt a big role but o fuckin well i still made it into the damn thing.i was kinda proud of myself in a way. and 5 fuckin days from the play they kicked me out.shit o well dudes.in the words of tiger army....FUCK THE WORLD!eh it hasnt been the best last 2 or 3 days but o well. i learned alot. learned that im not wanted and they have no dessire to talk to me anymore.lol.so in better news.i am gettin my destroyer soon!and then i can rock out and shit.and plus the house is goin on the market this week so rightious rightious.and when i move into my new home i switch schools.witch could be a good or bad thing.goin to chaparel.and fuck you dude,fuck aplying myself to anything im gunna get my guitar and play.cause thats my fuckin life in a nut shell.oi.lol lithium die lithium.we shall play my droogs we shall.

i leave you with "she" by misfits cause it kinda fits my mood and becuase i fuckin feel like it:

She walked out with empty arms
Machine gun in her hand
She is good and she is bad
No one understands

She walked in in silence
Never spoke a word
She's got a rich daddy
She's her daddy's girl

She loves naked sin
He loves evil sex
She has lost control
They are growing old

She will hide in silence
Then her day will come
She was virgin vixen
She is on the run
She is on the run
She is on the run

they call me a stray dog if you will.one to always run.escape from past doesnt always fix everything though.and i have found this the hard way.when your past that you want to leave doesnt let go.and dont worry its none of you amigos and chickas.and im sitting in this past right now.you can never grow out of yourself. you just evolve,change and learn.yes it is not good to completly change but small ones for the better and not just cause there wanted are good.i can always learn.thats what people dont get.i can can become better.everyones afraid to say shit that i can easilly change.and its funny as hell.it doesnt make you a bad person to tell the trueth.it doesnt make you any worse then you were.i refuse to change completly.i already went through that.but if it will help life along help out someone else.it takes a shit load to afend me.so dont fuckin worry about it.just fuckin yell it at me.tell me everything you hate in me.i fuckin love to here that shit.then i can actually do something about it.i just wont change completly for anyone.cause this is me.im not gunna be someone else.try to fit in someone elses shoes.if im i dont size up to what they were.then too fuckin bad.im not them.so not that thats all delt with.

latter dudes

chadwick

i though that pplain old english is boprring so im goin to speak in pig latin otay.

yma avoritefa inela's

ookla noa etha ightbra uicidesa,ateha ema,fia ovela eba indbla,entha ovela antla itha arkma,uckfa uckfa uckfa,olyha ipsha atmanba,exsa oogsdra dnaa ockra ollra,eatba ema toua foa ema,ingerboobma,uenoba orpa ueqa addana,arblesya,

dna mia oreddba ithwa istha osa aybema ia inishfa istha atterla.obrablypa otna.lol.atterla.

adwickcha

Romeo and Juliet act II scene i

Mercutio:

If Love be blind,Love cannot hit the mark.    & nbsp;    35

Now will he sit under a medlar tree

And wish his lady were that kind of fruit

As maids call medlars,when they laugh alone.

O,Romeo,that she were,O,that she were

An open et cetera,thou a poperin pear!   &n bsp;   &nb sp;   40

Romwo,good-night;I'll to my truckle-bed;

This feild-bed is too cold for me to sleep.

Come,shall we go?

tis a great line.lol.atleast in my opinion.witch doesnt count for much if you put it to some use.weekend of holloween was preddy rightious.ive got two words for you.....cat ears!*dies form the awsomeness of the cat ears*

.....as you finaly find me crawling

crawling on the floor

scraping my nails threw carpet

as you come threw the door

to find a picture less perfect

then the one drawn before

on a cold were only comfort

is my arm and a conversation tore....

these lines seem to describe almost everything im feeling.but every one that heres doesnt get the real meening.have you ever felt clueless of the world around you.i cant help it but im in a constant state of confussion and nieve.im not tired cause im always thinking.such is the problem of sleep.i need to feel complete.even if its just a simple goodnight.some sort of ending to a day.and...hel im dont know.and i need a start.a good morning of sorts.when spent most your time.longing for something and years past by and all you got was nothing.when you finaly here that word.that word "love".oh fuckin great it makes me feel to her someone say that to me and meen it.like nothings better.its so overly used but solemly ment for true purpose.and hell im not perfect.i never will be.but i never will run out of room to improve.im an artist.i aim to please.and i dont get off on anything for my own pleasure.to know i made someone happy just cause im there.to know im can make someone feel great without a word.thats fuckin awsome.i dont have any prefrences so ill do anything your way.ause its to here a reaction that what makes me happy.as i right i dance around subjects.seeing if anyone picks up onn it.and to those who may consern.there can always be an answere.just have to look threw.i cant pretend to be someone else...its not in my nature.i cant change my personality completly.and hell i know its flawed.just someone anyone come right out with the problem.im tired of being aware of something but know nothing at all.if its important now then say it now.dont worry about feelings,dont worry about my heart and hell forget about my ego.its long gone.i cant stop this feeling of me not being anough for you.this is me.im sorry.my mother when i came home today was out in in bed again.and....hell people are odd.please dont make me explain.my past is my past and i get habbits from it.i can tell you everything now.just lay down on you.but the trueth is.nothings new.ive it all done to me before....so knock yourself out.for this is my ending tonight and its not all that great.oh how id kill for a phone call.saying "i love ,you goodnight"

i havent realy slept.lol suprise.and im just at lenghths end of it.kinda weired how old habbits die hard.in theory i maybe am just asleep at the moment typing this.or this life could all be a dream of my real life.and ill wake up to find that my feath in this world was the wakening of myself.and now is the point when you ask yourself how in the world is chadwick thinking this much without his brain giving way.but it is possible.and it happens when im guitarles.cause my last cord shorted and im without a soldering iron thanks to my bro.so i just kinda laid on the ground singing and thinking all day.im killing time.and everything hits like bricks when i actualy think.to some extent i feel more informed.i examin my daily ways and what my relations are to people.to put it this way i look at everything at diffrent angles.does it help.probably not.i dont suggest it.then youl start this whole thing like i do and make your brain a wurling durvish.killing wave of wave of my set to none.but i have found the new found art of screaming.i screamed everything that was on my mind and it felt good.it was like i had some power over things.somethings i gave up on though.